I am kind of an internet geek. If I forget the name of an actor, I go to imdb.com. If I’m wondering who built the Golden Gate Bridge, I go to Wikipedia. If I need to know how many ounces are in a pint, I Google it. Needless to say, the internet has a plethora of information and can be very useful. On the other hand, the internet has a plethora of information that is very useless. Time and time again I have heard the term “Don’t believe everything you read”, but do I listen to that simple piece of advice? Of course NOT. Instead… I read. I worry. I ask my husband if he thinks I need to worry.He tells me no. I ignore him. I read some more. I worry some more. This is a common occurrence in our household (Babe, if you’re reading this: I never ignore you, i just said that for the sake of the blog). Yeah, right.
There is reason behind my negative feelings towards babycenter.com. They are LIARS! JK, well kind of. I like to think of myself as an intelligent woman, but for some reason when it comes to my daughter I doubt myself and tend to listen to what other people tell me. That listening leads to worrying which in the end somehow leads to me taking it out on my husband. My newest obsession is Ella’s development, more specifically her walking and talking. Ella will be 15 months in about two weeks and she has yet to walk or talk. She can stand by herself and walks all over holding onto the sofa, but she hasn’t quite taken the leap to walking on her own. When it comes to talking she is a bit behind. She can say “up”, but that’s about it. According to babycenter.com (this is my own summarized version), a baby who does not walk or talk by 15 months is some sort of freak that is destined to crawl around like a dog and be mute for the rest of her life. Ok, maybe that’s not exactly what they said, but that was the gist of it! I think part of her problem is that she isn’t around other babies very often. A lot of these “average” ages for walking and talking include kids that have older siblings or are at day care all day, so they learn by watching other children. Well, Ella is stuck at home all day with me and the dogs. Poor kid. I am making more of an effort to take her to play groups so she can be around other children her age. Hopefully that will help her. Her pediatrician said she’s a strong, smart, healthy little girl and that when she is ready she will walk and talk. So, why can’t I believe that? Why do I worry so much about her development and blame myself?
I DON’T want to be the kind of mom who is constantly worrying and comparing Ella to other kids. Today is the day that it end. I vow to no longer take babycenter.com’s advice over my pediatrician. I vow to no longer think Ella is “behind” in development and realize that she will walk and talk when she feels like it. I vow to not compare Ella to other babies because she is perfect and is exactly how she was meant to be. Plus, with a face like hers, who needs walking and talking?!;)